this time last night i was in the pub with my lovely friends and my favourite boy. i was ridiculously drunk and hyped up on too many caffeine pills, wearing his jumper and perched on his knee. so perfect, wish i could do it all again right now. instead i am sitting on my bed with a hot chocolate, arctic monkeys playing and lots of my college sketch book to work on. can’t complain really though.
there’s something really pathetic about how i know it will hurt a lot but i still can’t help but check up on him. he’ll appear on my facebook news feed and i have the urge to be nosey and see what’s going on in his life nowadays…
oh look, you’ve got a new girlfriend. well, another new one. you seem to get through at least one a month. and you’ve got a new job. cool. you say you’re really happy and everything is good. i wish you were still mine to miss. it’s like i had no affect on you at all, whilst you had this massive impact on everything and i still can’t listen to “our” that song because it’s like the whole of those few months summed up in lyrics and i miss your drunken voice singing it to me and that broken guitar of yours that you said you’d name after me. did you name it after her instead?